I just have one thing to say

This is a quote by Marilyn Monroe.
"If I'd observed all the rules, I'd never have got anywhere."
I live by the rules...I just don't follow them! Ha...Ha...take THAT ma!

Is it just me...or are my feelings playing with me?

So, for a time I've been...attracted to the same sex. Throughout my entire teenage life (I'm still a teenager) Anyway! I've discovered that my attraction for the same sex is going away. HOWEVER, there is this girl in my school who I have a, like, MAJOR crush on. It's like I'm in love with her or something. It's like I think of her, like, 24/7. It's not even funny. So, I have a major crush on her. And I thought that my whole attraction to the same sex was OVER! (Crying) But it's not! Because every time I see her (Since we go to the same high school) She makes me gay again. (Sigh) She's so beautiful. Moving on, as a confused statement: I don't know whether I should be following that little devil on my shoulder or the little angel?

Droppin' a Hobby

Well, life has been very hard on me lately. And, now, my mother is saying that I have an attitude because my cousin told me about someone who could help me in my DJ career. My dad just went berserk on me and I didn't know what to say or do because I'm a "minor". Like I care! Anyway, I decided to not take the offer since my dad got a little mad and I have a soft heart. My mom's yelling at me to calm my attitude when I didn't have an attitude. I really don't care if she throws me something. I've had a lot of things thrown at me. So, it's not new. So, I've decided that I will no longer DJ for a party or whatever. I'm going to simply finish writing my book and maybe-just MAYBE, continue studying because Global History is so hard right now. Sorry, Ma! I'm not your DJ. Although I love music but I'm not going to DJ for anyone at any party.

Oh My God, Oh My God, Oh My God! What a disappointment...

Well, last week, I believe, I was the talk of the week about how good I was in the party and now, this week, there was a small party for my...I guess...second cousin or just my cousin-Anyway! So, she graduated (Congrats, Ashley! Love you!) from high school and she decided to do a small party for her. I was...the DJ. However, with the people in the party, things didn't come out the way I hoped it would and people were leaving and I was alone in the living room, hearing music like I had to remember depressing things. Ugh! As IF! But, it was a good day...for a while.

For the Forming Band "The Raven Angels"

It turns out that my computer has crashed...like right now...it crashed. Literally just like...crashed. I mean, I mean, not LITERALLY-what the hell am I talking about? I mean, like, you know when the computer like, shuts down on you while you were working on something:
(Blue screen pops up) NO! What the fu-
And you don't know what to do?
(Bang on the desktop, grab the monitor you're too lazy to pick it up so you walk out after kicking the PC tower and you hurt your foot also) Ow! I fucking hate you, man! Fucking worthless computer! God, I fucking HATE this damn computer! ARRGH!
Yeah, that just happened to me...right now. It's crazy really because I had my hopes up for recording. And even worse, my amplifier isn't working. Tell you a quick story: See, I was playing guitar and my amp is a bit old so the sound goes out just for a little bit and all you have to do is tap the button that creates the distortion and the sound is back. So, I was playing guitar and the sound goes out, right? My dad is right next to it and I ask him if he can just TAP and I said tap...the amp button. Instead of doing that, he decides to take the amp apart and tell me that the amp is broken:
I said tap the button, not take the amp apart! Did you not hear me?
Mi ah, this amplifier is old.
Dude, it was working perfectly fine! I didn't say fix it. All I asked was, can you please tap the button? But did you do that; No! Instead you had to take it all apart and try to FIX it!
It's broken, Mi ah.
Un-Freakin'-Believable. Unbelievable! And who's fault would that be?
Mi ah, this amplifier has not been used for a long time-
Forget it, man. Just forget it!
So, yeah that's what happened. That's crazy, too, I have to say. I've been without entertainment for quite some time. The only thing I have now is XBox 360 to play Battlefield and PGR 4 and Guitar Hero and Nintendo Wii to play The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess. But I will get everything fixed, I promise.

Good Luck Has Come My Way!

I think the seven years of bad luck is running out! Haha, bad luck. You are-yo, you just got served! Well, besides the fact that I missed my appointment for therapy and it's raining out. But hey, life moves on. Anywho, I have a cousin who sings and *Whispers* I'm looking for a singer for my band! I am the talk of the week by my family because I did the best damn job as a DJ for my little bros' birthday party. Oh My God, Oh My God, Oh My God, this is GREAT! This is freakin' cool. Now, to just avoid my mother's bipolarism and my dad's overprotective "you can't have a boyfriend" stuff is what I have to figure out because that also brings back the seven years of bad luck without having to break a mirror...Simply because they tend to argue with me ALL THE TIME!