Oh My God, Oh My God, Oh My God! What a disappointment...

Well, last week, I believe, I was the talk of the week about how good I was in the party and now, this week, there was a small party for my...I guess...second cousin or just my cousin-Anyway! So, she graduated (Congrats, Ashley! Love you!) from high school and she decided to do a small party for her. I was...the DJ. However, with the people in the party, things didn't come out the way I hoped it would and people were leaving and I was alone in the living room, hearing music like I had to remember depressing things. Ugh! As IF! But, it was a good day...for a while.

For the Forming Band "The Raven Angels"

It turns out that my computer has crashed...like right now...it crashed. Literally just like...crashed. I mean, I mean, not LITERALLY-what the hell am I talking about? I mean, like, you know when the computer like, shuts down on you while you were working on something:
(Blue screen pops up) NO! What the fu-
And you don't know what to do?
(Bang on the desktop, grab the monitor you're too lazy to pick it up so you walk out after kicking the PC tower and you hurt your foot also) Ow! I fucking hate you, man! Fucking worthless computer! God, I fucking HATE this damn computer! ARRGH!
Yeah, that just happened to me...right now. It's crazy really because I had my hopes up for recording. And even worse, my amplifier isn't working. Tell you a quick story: See, I was playing guitar and my amp is a bit old so the sound goes out just for a little bit and all you have to do is tap the button that creates the distortion and the sound is back. So, I was playing guitar and the sound goes out, right? My dad is right next to it and I ask him if he can just TAP and I said tap...the amp button. Instead of doing that, he decides to take the amp apart and tell me that the amp is broken:
I said tap the button, not take the amp apart! Did you not hear me?
Mi ah, this amplifier is old.
Dude, it was working perfectly fine! I didn't say fix it. All I asked was, can you please tap the button? But did you do that; No! Instead you had to take it all apart and try to FIX it!
It's broken, Mi ah.
Un-Freakin'-Believable. Unbelievable! And who's fault would that be?
Mi ah, this amplifier has not been used for a long time-
Forget it, man. Just forget it!
So, yeah that's what happened. That's crazy, too, I have to say. I've been without entertainment for quite some time. The only thing I have now is XBox 360 to play Battlefield and PGR 4 and Guitar Hero and Nintendo Wii to play The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess. But I will get everything fixed, I promise.

Good Luck Has Come My Way!

I think the seven years of bad luck is running out! Haha, bad luck. You are-yo, you just got served! Well, besides the fact that I missed my appointment for therapy and it's raining out. But hey, life moves on. Anywho, I have a cousin who sings and *Whispers* I'm looking for a singer for my band! I am the talk of the week by my family because I did the best damn job as a DJ for my little bros' birthday party. Oh My God, Oh My God, Oh My God, this is GREAT! This is freakin' cool. Now, to just avoid my mother's bipolarism and my dad's overprotective "you can't have a boyfriend" stuff is what I have to figure out because that also brings back the seven years of bad luck without having to break a mirror...Simply because they tend to argue with me ALL THE TIME!

Par-tey DeeJay

Oh my God, oh my God, oh my GOD! Dudes, I had a party on like Saturday the 13th and I was the freaking DJ! Oh my God, it was crazy. Yo, it was like I wasn't even thinking about what to put on the CD thingy it was just INSANE! And I was putting all types of electronic, techno, trance and all that stuff and it was CRAZY!

 Mind my brother and the rest that are there.

Internet's Borrriiinnnggg

Okay, so, I haven't been on Blogger because of two reasons:
1. Internet's boring.
2. I haven't been able to get on Blogger anyway because my fucking internet signal keeps going out.
Like, really? God, man! So yeah, there's my reason. Oh and also because nothing good has been going on in my life that seems so interesting besides the fact that my mom has been pissing me off because of my little mistakes like tripping over a crack on the sidewalk and because I didn't wear nothing but my bikini to the beach (luckily my bro had a buttoned shirt he lent me) And also because I didn't put the table cover right on the table for her party. Crazy, huh? But...(sighs) This is what I have to deal with because she's so BIPOLAR! Yet, for some strange reason, I still love her.

Twitter Sucks!

God, who in the hell has Twitter? There's no sense in having Twitter if everyone ignores you! Like, really, what's the point? It's so retarded and...STUPID! You know, and I don't even know why I decided to have Twitter (Well, my dad told me) but still! That doesn't count! I was so dumb to actually create an account. Fucking stupid!

Shout Out to Mom, Mikey, and Val!

Well, yesterday was a birthday for three people...in my family: Mom, Mikey (My bro), and of course, my cousin Valeria who I barely get to see. Happy Birthday to you old people LOL. I love you guys! You guys are the best! Mom, you have been there all my life. Today is your party, don't do anything rational and don't hurt yourself. Mikey, I love you (You're still an ass, though) and I hope you've learned not to cry like a bitch. Val, I miss you and I hope to see you soon. You've been far away enough and so busy, I don't get to see you. I love you guys so much. Happy Birthday!

Mom Vs. Grandma!

So, you know those movies where the protagonist and the antagonist they see each other and the screen only, like, catches their eyes when they're about to fight each other? Well, see that's how it is with my mom and grandmother. See, I don't know what it is with my grandmother but she has this grudge against my mom. Don't know why...anyway, she has it against me too because she wanted me to take pills to get rid of my little phase of lesbianity.Like, really? Really? I'm not even gay! How is being a lesbian a disease or a disorder? And how can pills get rid of it? God, she's so...stupid! But my mom doesn't like her. I don't know why. I think because my grandmother thinks that my mom is beating on my dad. In her dreams. My parents love each other. They're so beautiful together (Yeah right) I mean, well, they may fight because my mom is bipolar but still she doesn't beat on my dad. So, my mom says that if my grandmother and her fought, all she had to do was hit the spot that my grandmother got a surgery on. I mean, don't you think that's the best way?

Angsty Feeling

Have you ever felt a sort of gut feeling in your stomach after coming from somewhere? I mean, you probably stay in your house and still feel something like it but it's a sort of scary feeling, you know? It's not the type of feeling that makes you want to throw up but it's a pressuring feeling, you know what I mean? Like, you feel scared that something might happen or you feel pressured because you feel like...I don't know how to say it. It's just a pressuring feeling that brings your stomach down and moves it around and you don't know how to deal with it.

Weight Issue

School is starting soon and I hate to say but...(sigh) I'm still on weight. See, I've tried many times to lose weight but I'm really...really...lazy. And that's not the only thing! I went to the doctor and found out that I had high blood pressure and that I was in danger of Diabetes (Thank you, chips.) Yes, I blame it on the chips, however, still partly my fault because I let them invade my body by me eating them. Just think of the scenario...I have a chip that talks...in my hand...and I'm trying to fight it away but it smells so good:
Chips: (Evil laughter) Now I will make you fat, Mi ah!
Me: No! No, no, please! Please, don't make me fat. Please I want to be a model and be skinny like the pretty girls on the beach.
Chips: No! You shall be fat and have chichos like Mikey! (That's my brother)
Me: NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
I just devoured them into my mouth...still...I blame them for making me fat. I should be blaming me for eating them and my parents for buying them because I ask them to but I still blame the chips. Oh wait, I have to blame the spaghetti and rice and Mac and Cheese that my dad makes...but...shit, I still blame the chips...Simply because they look crumply and crunchy and...taste salty and have weird bumps on them. (I laugh...and then cry).

So, here's the story. I wanted to be skinny because I wanted to be in modeling. But see, my dad said I was too skinny to be in modeling. (Aren't models bony, too?) And he said I had to eat a little so I had some meat in me. I said okay. (This was a long time ago) Years after, I saw I was too fat to be a model and I went to the doctor and found out that I was 168 lbs. So, summer came and I go to the beach with my family...since my family are like beach-addicts. And all the girls (At least, most of the girls...) who I didn't know were really skinny) And I was really sad...sad because I love to eat and I'm...(Crying) FAT! I mean, who doesn't like or love to eat? So, this year, I went to the doctor...again for a second yearly physical, I guess. And not that bad but still bad, I saw that I was 152 lbs. (Hmph, still too fat!) I wanted to cry but not in front of the nurse. So, my dad asked if I wanted to run to lose a little weight and I said okay and turns out...I can't.
Two reasons:
1. Me and/or my dad's asleep.
2. My dad says the streets are dangerous.(Oooh, who cares?)
Oh, and three: I'm just too damn freakin' lazy.
So, you tell me, what the hell is the point of trying to lose weight if I can't go out to run because the streets are too "dangerous", My dad and I go to sleep late because we play Call of Duty or Battlefield or Project Gotham Racing all night long? AND...and, my dad cooks andgives me a huge portion of food. Course, I have a friend who's anorexic and she does eat but makes herself throw up but I don't want be that...maybe...

What's so bad about a New Experience?

Talking about gay people, we all have our new "experiences", yes? Well, when we feel this...way about the same sex, we want to try what it's like to touch a girl or touch a boy who's exactly like you. I think it's kinda the same for straight people. Anywho, so, has anyone ever thought about why it's not so bad for a straight guy to say, "I just got laid by this chick, dude!" and why it's pretty bad for a girl to say, "Holy shit, I just had sex with Diana". See, there's where I don't get, okay, see, deep down, and I don't know if you've noticed this but deep down, we all kinda have the same genitals. You know, maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm fucking hallucinating. But I think that we all have the same genitals. Except, one's sticking out and the other is laid out. You know if you cut a damn penis off, I thinkand I'm pretty sure that you'll have the same genital as a girl! Now, (inhale...exhale) going back to new experiences, I personally don't think there's anything wrong with having sex or making out with the same sex, okay? I simply see it as the same thing as a girl making out with a guy or a guy getting laid by a girl. I really don't get it. We all have the same body structure and the same organs. What...is so BAD about touching a girl or touching a boy when you are the same sex? Now, if you disagree with this or agree, which I'm probably guessing most of you disagree with this, just comment on the bottom.

Why is it such an alien topic?

So, in life, we have straight couples. Of course, both of the opposite sex-man and woman. However, we also have gay couples. A man and a man or a woman and a woman. So, why exactly is it illegal by God to be in a relationship with the same sex. See, in my point of view, I agree that it's illegal by God because He created man and woman. But think about it, why do the so called Catholics and Christians hate it? I mean, they're just people and they're not special and even better, some-maybe most, in their religion, are gay too. So, let's get away from relationships for a second here. If it's wrong to be in a relationship with the same sex, why is it bad to experience the urge you've always felt about the same sex? I mean, it's just a one time thing, am I right? Probably not but I think I have a point. Okay, so maybe your parents may reject to it or it wouldn't be approved by your grandparents but, in discreet terms, maybe you could try it without them knowing. Homosexuality, I have to say, is such an alien topic, you know? People, just because someone is gay, it doesn't mean that they're an alien! Someone who sees a girl dressed as a boy with tattoos and holding hands with a another girl, they automatically want to talk about them or say that they'll be condemned to hell. If you hate them so much, just...I don't know, don't think about them. You know the point is that the people who hate them aren't following the road of God. If you believe in God so much, just ignore the gay people! Now look, I support gay people only because I have friends who go through the harshest comments ever. We are all equal! No matter who we are or what we like. We follow who we want to follow. I'm not saying to follow the devil but it's-and I think this goes to people who don't understand, it's not our fault we feel the way we feel. We probably didn't expect to like the same sex. That's not what I expected in my life. Let our own judgement come if we don't learn our lesson soon.