Men...For Some...Men

Men, the dogs of life, the horny dogs, the goofy ones, the geeky ones, the lovey dovey ones, the inspirational ones, the stupid ones, and so on and so forth. However, there are some men who just can't take no for an answer. Not that I've had experience-maybe I have but anyway, there are some men who believe in the whole patriarchy shit. Now, I don't (in the ghetto way) roll with that. Women rule this world. Women belong in this world. For God's sake, Eve was made the same time that Adam was made. Well, not technically. He was made first...and then Eve came. That's not the point! My point is...men are so excessive and obsessive with sex and how many girls he gets. And as my reading teacher calls it, "He a playa!"...No. Don't work with me, honey. Sorry, go jerk off somewhere away from me. That's probably why so many women-not even! TEENAGERS! Teenagers are ending up pregnant all because men (and boys) cannot hold their penis in their pants! Seriously! God, you know, that's partly why I hate boys! They're so fucking pursuing for the sex. Well, most...boys in this case. Wait, I did say that, didn't I? I should write an article but I'm more of an erotic novelist. I just don't use men in there. HAHA! I should write an article. Huh. Nah. Sucks anyway. Good topic but...I'm not good at writing about the world.

So, I've had a few people ask me who I am, what I like, what I do...there's a reason why I have a blog. As for those questions, I can answer them.

Who I am:
I'm just a girl from the Bronx. I live with my 2 sisters and 2 brothers (One brother barely stays with us; One on the way :D) and my parents. I haven't seen my father in 10 years now so I live with my stepdad. I've been living with my stepdad since 2003. I'm kinda like a couples' councilor for my parents and some of my friends. I'm pretty shy most of the time, but I love to socialize (now), I have a lot of don'ts and dos. And that's about it. I mean, just ask me any questions you have and I'll definitely answer them.

Now, what I like/love:
I love Doritos and Ham and Cheese sandwiches and pasta and Macaroni and Cheese and pizza. I'm pretty much of a hot chocolate/coffee/Root Beer person. I love erotic literature, I love music (music is my life) I love all types! I love to sleep. I'm a really big sleeper. I love Katherine Moennig, Joan Jett, Freddie Mercury and Jenna Haze(Now, I'm in love with that woman) I love motorcycles and Muscle Cars. If it's an exotic car, I love the Porsche and the Mclaren and the Farrari. I'm not much of a money person but I'd love to be famous. I love guns and knives and Rocket Launchers and-I love all types of weapons. I love video games: First Person Shooter, Music, Adventure, Puzzle, Sexual, Stealth, etc. I love Europe. I've always wanted to go. Especially, Paris, Germany, Russia, Italy, Greece, Rome, and tons of others. Although, Russia is in Asia, I'd love to go. I love naked art. I love philosophy. I love the entertainment industry; whether it's music or drama or adult or whatever. I love it. I love fashion (Don't really care what it is) and I love Fedoras.

What I do:
I play instruments: Piano, Saxophone, Guitar, Violin (I'm starting drums). I make music: a little of Hip Hop, a lot of Techno, and a few instrumentals. I am writing an erotic novel. I eat. I take two hours in the shower (Don't get the wrong idea!).

...You know, I think...I think I just answered everything...(Deep breath) that was a lot to cover. If you want to know more, just ask. Excluding my private life and some history. 

I Just Have One Thing To Say...

I really, really, really want a Ham and Cheese Sandwich...for real. Like FOR REAL for real. A little disturbing but I'm actually horny for a Ham and Cheese Sandwich...(Sigh)

Plans for the Week

Well, my Finals are done. I finally got the week off. I think I failed Algebra. But I had a nice chat with my Math teacher. She's cool. But she can be mean for a lady with no bass in her voice. She's petit and cute, I'll be honest with you. Don't judge a book by it's cover. She's still tough. Anyway, today, we made a little party for my Global History teacher because she wouldn't be in the school for the 3rd quarter of the school year. Which sucks. She said there would be a substitute teaching us. But a GOOD SUBSTITUTE, she says. A good sub? WTF! Oh well, I don't think I'm coming back to that school anyway. Cause I'm transferring! Still, I gotta go for an interview and I gotta go with my parent and then I have therapy... (Sigh) Boy, do I have a busy Happy as Fuck week.

New Year Alert of Deezasta...for me! Then Again, Good

Happy New Year!...Yes, yes, I know, I KNOW! I'm freakin' 18 days late but chill man. My Internet got freakin' cut off for the entire first few days of the year. Then it went back on, like, a week later. But I couldn't go on anyway because I was behind on my work. ANYWAY, (Sighs) I have finals on Friday and Monday...FUCK! So much for hating algebra, I think I'll do fine. As for freakin' reading, my God, I have no idea what to tell you. I'm gonna freakin' fail this thing. AAH! I need a big jar of coffee cause my head...is spinnin' right now. (Just from the way I'm talking right now...I gotta stop hangin' with Mr. Schuman) That man is hilarious. Here's the best thing about my day of the Finals...Ready?...I don't have to wear uniform! Thank God! Ah, yes, life is Happy as Fuck.

The Experience of a Lifetime...Ladies and Gentlemen: Heartbreaker

(Smiling)Okay, so, I don't know how this whole diary (technically Blogger) shit goes...so, I'll just say it how it is. Anyway, today, (Sigh) I spoke to a very good friend of mine. He's probably about 6' something. He's a really handsome guy. Now, a little background check: We met last year (I was a Freshman, he was a Junior) We used to hang out with my writing teacher from last year, Ms. Knorr and I completely had a crush on him. Now, there was this other guy who I had a crush on also but I really liked him (The Junior). The Junior's name is Victor and he's a very, very handsome guy. I really liked him, I'll be honest. I did. So, today, I decided to tell him how much I felt about him because I told him earlier I told him that I liked him. Like EARLIER earlier. Not like, morning earlier but a few weeks before earlier.

(Confused) ANYWAY, I told him that what I felt for him was a bit more than a crush...I didn't know how to tell him nor did I know if he would understand. Now, he wasn't sure about the whole thing and told me that he was sorry. Now, I've never had a boyfriend nor do I see now the pleasure of finding one anymore because I've learned and experienced what it's like to be...to be...rejected. I've never felt like that. I kinda pictured it like Romeo and Juliet...except...Romeo doesn't like Juliet in my imagination. Not that I'm as pretty as Juliet. I just don't see myself like that.

(Pretty baffled) I was in love with the guy! How stupid could that be? I mean, he's not stupid for rejecting me. I probably understand why. But why don't I wait for a right time? Why am I always the naive one? Why do I pursuit after something I will never have?

(VERY confused)My parents just told me not to tell him how I feel...BUT me, like a dumb ass and like fuckin' Juliet, I told him! Because I couldn't stand it! I couldn't stand the fact that I was in love with him. And you know what's the funny thing, I HATE, I HATE HATE HATE people- men or women who chase after someone they love when they know that they aren't coming back. So, why am I like that? Why is it that that's human nature? I've battled for love. I've battled to be loved...and I could never have it. I never pictured that I'd be this heartbroken. I never pictured that I'd fall in love.

(Calm)He still my friend...he still my best friend...but I think..(Sigh) I think I made our friendship distant, perhaps. Perhaps, we won't speak to each other like we always did. But life is life...and life...is fucked up. Love is fucked up.

(Berserk on love)I knew it, I KNEW IT! Love has no mercy for me. Love has no chance for me. It's like fucking Karma. Or- or fucking...um, um, superstition. Or better yet, fucking witchcraft. Yeah, yeah that's what it is, fucking witchcraft...like I give a shit...

(Crying) It wasn't my fault! It wasn't my fault! If I could only learn how to shut up! God, why am I like this?! Why!

(Laughing) I mean, what was the purpose of saying that? Hahahahahaha I'm gonna go get some juice. This is lovely! This- this, I can write about. I have finally learned what a heartbreak is! Ha!

(Scary) THIS IS FUCKING AMAZING! This is great! How much longer till the next full moon? I hear that's the night people get insane or go insane. I think I'm Bipolar...HOW NICE!

(Crying...again) Why the fuck! Why the-God, why, why, why? SOMEBODY GET ME SOME MORE JUICE! Oh, my eyes are stinging! Ow! Why!

(Smiling) So, yeah that's what happened today. This doesn't count as a girly thing because I don't do this type of shit. So, please enjoy your day. Life is well...life is...Happy as Fuck.

(Scary) Muah- ha- ha- ha- ha- ha! That's what you think!